There are so many things this body cannot do right now.
There are so many beautiful images I see of the human form that I can practically taste yet I know they are not for me at this moment. It's all relative of course.
Earlier today, we had some maternity photographs taken. Our first official family portraits :) At one point, Jeff and I went into headstands and I started to play in lotus while inverted; something this body had been conditioned to do so very easily in my pre-pregnancy days. What were once my incredibly open hips, seem to feel like legs of a barbie doll that, upon being pushed to deeply, would pop off of my body.
There are many things this body may or may not be able to do right now but I know that the payoff for going in these directions will be non-existent with a far greater risk than any possible reward. So instead, I visualize and I admire and I appreciate, from a whole new gifted perspective, what I have previously felt in this body knowing that this is a very special time and that all of "that" will be there for me to re-explore in the most intimate, present way ever, soon enough.
Instead, I choose to focus on what this beautiful body I get to call mine for the time being CAN do.
It can fill out and become more curvaceous than it's ever been. It can expand and stretch and remain smooth and soft even so. This beautiful body has the power to make all that it contains feel more feminine, sexy, fluid and graceful than ever before.
It has empowered me.
It has given me the most confidence in my body's natural abilities, deepened my intuition and sense of bodily awareness
And it has allowed the man I love to love me even more, and more OF me, in ways he has never in his life imagined loving the feminine.
This life giving, life sustaining body that I get to call mine isn't currently putting legs behind the head or twisting up in arm balances effortlessly and with ease like before.
These hips are creating a different kind of space.
These breasts are becoming full and firm with the nectar of life.
And what was once a flat belly is now a beautiful blossoming and *moving henna belly that is the KEEPER of life as it houses its swimming creation...the very creation whose birth will complete the orgasm that in its nature completes the most intimate expression of commitment, loyalty and love two human beings can share.
No... this body isn't doing the aesthetically celebrated deep openings it once was nor does it feel the need to.
Instead, it's preparing for the most profound, most feminine deep opening known to humankind.
It is resting, nurturing, loving, sustaining and CREATING LIFE...the very life that will make its way through the very body that is the lifeline and source of creation.
What this body CAN do is
I can close my eyes, lift the corners of my mouth and move my spine and hips to the tribal sounds, Egyptian and world beats that fill this naturally lit space as my arms and body float in the most sensual way they have ever moved before. As this body feels the percussion move through Her, She is guided by Mother Earth as she bends and breathes all that surrounds and supports her while emphasizing each new curve.
What this body can do is Create Life
for the growing Love inside of it
Give life BACK
to the keeper of it.
A Full Woman I Am.
And THAT is to be celebrated.