Musings of a woman, wife and mother...Light keeper and truth seeker choosing to go easy in a fast paced world.
Prana Shakti, Partnership, Pregnancy, Parenthood, Preparation, Power and Pranams.
My personal Path of Practice: Prana Shakti (the creative & pulsating life force within me), Partnership (a love story of two people who consciously choose one another every day), Pregnancy (Grace in my belly revealing herself through this growing baby boy who lives in my womb), Parenthood (The highest calling of them all), Purification (of all self-defining labels accumulated along the way) Preparation (for a new life, a new calling and for the birthing of all this woman has yet to become, experience, learn and know), Power(to fully stand in mine as a wife, mother and creative woman) Pranams (daily gratitude and humble thanks for my beautiful life and blessings along the way).
"...I would like to beg you dear Sir, as well as I can, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer."
I've been thinking about these words of poet Rainer Maria Rilke from Letters to a Young Poet for some time now. Specifically, I've been thinking about "Living the questions" and how it relates to where I find myself in my life at the moment.
When I pause in acknowledgement of where I find myself, I stand in awe of what it's taken to get here. I feel so incredibly overwhelmed and cleansed in gratitude not only for the trials and blessings along the journey but for gratitude itself. One of my daily rituals is that I write in my gratitude journal. It's helps me to stay grateful for the incredibly BIG and abundant life I live that is just so incredibly full. It helps me to be much more aware of the mundane and ordinary blessings that are equally huge and meaningful in my day to day life.
Just like meditating or anything else, dedication becomes habit-forming. I'm starting to actually look for the things to be grateful for now. And everything "counts".
In this gratitude and in my quiet, continuous and daily "Thank You!" to the Universe, what I ponder most from my desire to be grateful are Rainer Maria Rilke's words about not searching for the answer but living the question itself. I've come across this quote so many times in my life but only recently did it really click for me. Only recently did the question, living it, turn into an action.
"How can I show them that I love them, today?"
Just having this question floating around in my consciousness has changed my way of being.
My purpose today is to be a teacher of love to my family. It's the single most important thing in my life right now and my prayer is that through living my question, consciously, I can answer it through action on a daily basis beginning with the two people who matter the most in my Universe.
*Writing the letter/email can be quite cathartic so go ahead and do it. Just don't send it.
*You cannot will someone to have an awakening-to see or "get" something. We are all on our own karmic journeys on our own time frames.
*Once you get good at hitting the curve balls and you make it to the Majors, you're considered a badass (an All Star) when you bat .300. This translates as MISSING 70%. Bigger translation: The curve balls in life count for a LOT.
*Sleep on it. For God sakes, sleep on it!
*Practice yoga then seek out it's parallel in your life. This.Will.Change.You.
*No matter what, commit to standing in your Grace and being kind.
*When you blame, you loose the lesson.
*You're not a victim.
*Everyday, try your hardest to be a good person.
*Stay true and honest with yourself. Do not sell yourself out. Do not sell yourself short.
*There is no such thing as being "too open". This is the language only of those who are afraid, closed off and contracted.
*Balance your actions and reactions.
*Learn to view everyone and every experience as a teacher.
*Some teachers are inherently assholes. They too, however, are teachers.
*You choose the "way you are". Douche bag, diva, divine delight... It's your choice. Choose wisely.
*Self reflect.
*Trust your intuition. Just don't confuse this with your thinking mind.
*Stop beating yourself up for thinking you should have known better (or for any other reason for that matter).
*Gratitude is the heart's memory. Be grateful.
*Start a gratitude journal.
*Know what stokes your heart-fire and begin stoke it's fire daily.
*Make close friends with humility.
*Encourage others every opportunity you get and be an empowering force.
*Be an awesome observer.
*Admit your faults and work on them.
*Train your weaknesses.
*Apologize.
*Do the thing. Stop talking about it or dreaming about it. Just f'n do it already!
*Decide what's important to you and focus your energy.
*For an entire day, let every.single.word. be one of support and encouragement of every.single.person. you come into contact with.
*Simplify your life. Cut out as much bullshit as possible.